January 2010
“i cant be honest with even myself.
did you ever wish you were somebody else?”
– Circa Survive.
feelings wound tight.
with all my effort i force a smile.
i pretend everythings all okay.
but honestly;
who the fuck am i fooling?
not me.
i still feel the pain.
why not let the pain underneath pour through to the surface?
why not show the world how im really feeling, instead of how i want to feel?
gah.
“i find it kinda funny, find it kinda sad; the dreams in which im dying are the...”
– gary jules
“everyday is the same filled with nothing but hatred and pain.”
1/20/10. true thoughts, pt 1.
honestly, i have no friends.
you may think i do, but when you look closely enough you’ll realize what i have;
im completely alone.
all that i have is the person who i hate the most, that is myself.
all i have is heart full of hatred and pain.
all that i am is no one.
all i know is this;
i have nothing, i deserve nothing.
i wander around from place to place longing to find someone...